Uphill Battle....

So..It's been a few weeks, I think since my last post. There's been alot going on with me health wise, and I'm still in the small uphill battle with it, but I'm almost seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. 

For the past 2 years, I've been struggling with Choric Sinusitis.  It started as acute and went to Chronic.  This has meant countless headaches and migranes, pain to the touch in my face, being overly tired from my body trying to fight it, countless amount of anti-biotics and major pain meds to cope with the headaches.  I recently was FINALLY referred to an ENT.  This next week I will go on a steroid to see if it will help my sinus lining reduce down.  It is thickened and causing some of the stress.   Hopefully that will work. 

My other problem I am currently dealing with is Anxiety.  I just went to the doctor yesterday and I was having a random anxiety attack, and it completely affected my blood pressure.  They couldn't get a good reading on it, due to it.  I am taking all the necessary steps to help myself control it.  I have group classes, and I will be seeing a counselor.  I'm starting to feel better as time goes on, now that I'm aware of what the problem really is, i'm finding that I can breathe through it a little better.  I have NO CLUE as to what set this off.  It's progressively gotten worse over the last while, so I feel like there is some end in sight. 

I started reading a book called, "Lord, change my attitude before it's too late."  I got it from my sister in law Jenn, who is going through the bible study part of the book with her women's group.  It looked interesting, since I'm  really struggling with my attitude lately, so I bought it.  Boy have I already gotten so much out of it! I'm in love with this book.  The author, who is also a pastor, puts thing into the clearest perspective.  I feel like this book was written just for me! (which is so not true) or maybe it was.  God is so amazing, I'm finding just how real God is, and just how much He HATES complaining which is something I do VERY well.  I have always thought myself to be a God fearing woman, but I really wasn't.  Now I am.   I am more in love with God now than I ever have been.  I want to please Him, not disappoint Him by my bad choices or my bad attitude.  I want to be thanful for everything I have from Him, not complain about every little thing. 

Today I am so thankful for friends and family,, who has steadily supported me through this process.  It is wasn't for you, I wouldn't have thet strength to do it.  I thankful that our God is a God of healing, and LOVE!