Favies

Seeing as it is MONDAY and I absolutely despise MONDAY, I have decided to write about some of my favorite things.

One of my newest favorite things that make my <3 just got pitter pat, is



I have been so inspired and have really started dreaming and using my imagination again.  My crafty side is coming out again, and it really make me feel rejuvenated.  I now feel like instead of buying something new, I can rejuvenate it with something!

My next favorite thing...is more really like a person.   She is:

She has really become one of my favorite bloggers, and her food we have often in our household.  Honestly the more I read her blog and get to know her, I feel like she is one of my gal pals and we talk about everything and she totally get's my wacky ways..

I mean doesn't she just look like the nicest lady you have ever met in your life! 

So with that being said, she really does make some amazing food! And to top it all, I really feel like I live on the ranch where she live.   I know that' s a bit creepy, but it's the TRUTH!   

Another thing that I absolutely love is what I like to call ocean breezeeeeeeeeeeeeee................

This past weekend we were celebrating my nephew Silas McCormick's dedication with the fam bam, and up where they live in Oxnard, they get the most delicious ocean breeze.  It is rejuvenating and delicious.  It makes me feel like this...

yup i feel like a reed swaying in the wind.......

I'll update you on my favorite things....but for now those are just some.  

Half Dome

So as I'm contemplating how i'm going to about getting motivation to really truly get back into shape, I was reading an article on how a famous athlete gets motivation after an injury/ any kind of set back.  I realized through reading this article, that I need to simply focus on one goal.

Yes, this is how you climb the infamous Half Dome.  My close friend Megan climbed it with our other good friend Sophie and I think she said it took them 12 hours! Ummm.....what?   12 HOURS? YES! I think this sounds like a challenge.  I think I just might have to do this.

So my goal is going to be to climb Half Dome next year when Justin and I go to Yosemite with Kathy and Andrew in June 2012.   Now, I realize this is an all day thing, but I really want to have an accomplishment in my life in the physical activity world.  I think this will help me get to my goal, of being the healthy I want to be.  I want to just feel good.  I'm starting to be put on so many med's, and different antics that I'm scared because I'm way to young for all of this.  I can do this! I want to do this! I will not be fat and LIMITED my entire life! 

Balance

One of my amazing, most genuine, most amazing best friends is currently and has been on the hunt for balance in her life.  I try to help her and give her sound advice about her job and life in general, as well as just listen to what she is going through.  She has a tough job, a respectable job, but non the less it is a very tedious and demanding job.  Last night while we hung out after an amazing kickoff to Glendale Relay for Life, we were talking about balancing life again.  I suddenly realized that as much as my life looks balanced on the outside....it's really not.  

So then I started to think about what is my problem! Mostly I think about why I cannot get fully motivated to loose weight.  What is keeping me back? Why can I find EVERY in the book to not do it! When I had my personal trainer, Keva, for 3 weeks, I did pretty well actually.  I was pretty proud of myself.   But when it came to cardio on my own, I completely failed.  I came up with some reason why I couldn't make it to the gym that day.  To tell you the truth, I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety issues lately, and it is finally to the point where my doctor thinks I need to see a psychiatrist.  Oh JOY! 

WAIT WHAT! 

A psychiatrist? Are you kidding me?....were my thoughts exactly! I do not want meds, I do not want someone telling me I'm crazy! 

Which is exactly how it makes me feel! 

But I figure if i'm there to talk about anxiety, then maybe I will be fine.  Maybe they will just tell me ways I can channel my anxiety to be productive.  

More so than anything along side anxiety, I think all of this comes down to my self worth.  How much do I think I am worth to be healthy? For me, for Justin, for our future kiddos.  Apparently, it must not be very high if I can't do anything about it.  I just wonder when will that change?  What needs to happen in order for me to be kicked in the gut and realize that it's a lifestyle and not just something I need to do.  What is it that is going to click?  All these things ring true in my mind, and yet I cannot get the will power to get off the dang couch and move! I feel intimidated and almost lost in myself when these feelings come into play of me not wanting to do it.  

Anywho.......all my friends have tried to help me in some way, and I just couldn't get through it.  Hopefully there will be a change sooner than later.  For my health's sake.