Finding Peace through a Hurricane.....

It kinda sounds like an oxymoron.  No, it is an oxymoron.

These days, I'm struggling to find that peace.   We have many things going on right now and I have been a stress basket over each and everyone of them.  I keep crying out to God, telling Him I give it to Him.  But in reality, I really haven't.  I'm trying and trying and trying to release it, but I can't.  I don't know how.  WHY??


....Because I'm a control freak!


****Sad Day, right?



Yea, sad day is right.  Because until I learn to release that control, I will never experience the fruit that comes with giving God all the control in my life.  As I sit and think about all the craziness that is in our lives these days, I think is it really worth it?

NO! it's not.

I find myself running in the opposite direction of God and in that opposite direction, I find....pain, suffering, emptiness, loneliness, aggression, resentment.  All these things are serious and seriously no fun.  Especially when I bring all these feelings into my marriage.  Does it effect Justin? oh you betcha! I have always struggled to find balance in my life and a steady routine if you will.   Do I need to trust that  God will provide with all things, YES! Do i need to stop worrying, YES! So why is it so hard?


****Because I'm human? Yes.


So what do I need to do to rectify all these things?  Pray! Be in the word.  Push aside temptation and rebuke evil things.  Stay true to what God wants for my life and bare the fruit that He is so willing to freely give!

I've pushed God aside one to many times, but you know what? He still loves me.  I might not know all the Bible verses, I might not be some wonder Christian who knows everything, but I do know this! God loves me.  Like He really really loves me.  No matter how many times I fail Him, He will NEVER fail me.  Because He's awesome like that.

Hello Fall!

So this past weekend, I was feeling the itch to be crafty, and make something.  It's when I feel at peace and the world is right.....since i've been feeling so opposite of that, I decided it was the perfect remedy! I decided to make a fall wreath for our front door! This is how it turned out! 

And the best part...wait for it...It was only $10 bucks! for everything! I was so happy how it came out! I love looking at my front door when I come home now! 

This past week, I have been asking begging God to reveal Himself to me. I have seen so much and it's funny how at the time, you think nothing of it.  But, as I'm looking back, I can see how He purposefully placed Himself among me.  From talking with some dear friends last night at dinner, God revealed to me no matter how bad we think OUR situation is, it's NOT the worst.  There is someone out there far worse off than you, so be grateful! 

I know that God is always there for us.  The way I fall more and more in love with God is through music.  Yesterday at church, God really spoke through me in worship.  The sermon was smack dab in my face.  Colassians 3:1-16.  Basically kill the bad out of your life, let the goodness in.  There are so many things in my life right now, that I just need to get rid of....and not tomorrow...NOW! Why is it so hard for our flesh to get rid of such things? I don't get it! It's poison to your soul! 

Anyways....I cannot wait for fall to get here.   This heat needs to go now! Like peace out! 

What are you guys most excited about for Fall?