Contentment

So i'm finally feeling contentment and consistent motivation after a long time of not....if not ever. I have looked back on my life a realized points in my life where I have seen myself grow and mature. I think I have been waiting for that next moment for a long time. I feel like I haven't progressed until now. When I mean progress, I mean emotionally. I haven't really felt like an adult, because I have had so many times in my life where I don't really complete things I want to do or say I want to do. I don't have very good follow through. I've been better at not making promises I cannot keep. I have also found a very effective way in making sure I stick to things. I make small, very small goals for myself. This week I have actually progressed with school a bit. I had a counselor appointment on tuesday and felt so good about it. She told me I have way more units and that's great for a returning student. I have 106 units, and 42 transferable units. As of right now, I am trying to get into a life planning class that is completely full. We shall see where that goes. If I have to wait until Fall, I will, but I will get in eventually. I'm not sure where I want to go after my AA is done, but God has a plan, and His plan is perfect.

Another way I am coping with not being overwhelmed and sticking to my guns is, i'm not looking so far into the future like I used to. I used to stress myself out by looking so far into the future and not be able to cope with not being able to control it. It was very difficult. Hey God is in control, NOT me. So let's see what He has in store for Justin and I. I can feel myself grow as i get better control on my life, and accept what is, will be. I have the power to change my weight, my spiritual life, what I eat, how I treat others, and my attitude. I DON"T have the power to change the future. I am OK with that! I feel like I have come to terms and realized so much in the past few months. It feels awesome!

As for some more awesome news...Justin just got a call yesterday and he recieved a promotion at work! It's is only a dollar more an hour, but it is something he really wanted to do, and he is in heaven! City of Hope is getting a blood mobile hopefully by March. Justin will be in charge of it and driving it. He will mostly be on blood drives, and he will be in charge of more logistical things. He is so excited for this oppourtunity and can't wait to start! You should have seen him when he got the call last night....he jumpeed up and down like a little kid! (luckily we don't have neighbors below us yet!)We are so excited! We went to dinner with my parents to celebrate!

So I guess that's all for now..... Just a little thought......

peace and love....