Hitting a goal...wait, WHAT??????

Yup! You read that right! I hit a very important goal this weekend.  One that I really believed would never come, and one that I truly believed I could  NEVER do. (That is an ugly word!) I have fought myself for years over this goal and never really giving it much effort to get to this goal.  What are goals, if there is no effort involved. Well over the last 4 months, I've given it some effort and really dug in and made some life changes.   Now I definitely have not given it 100%, but I've given it some decent effort.

I AM PROUD TO SAY I HAVE LOST 20 LBS!

I never thought this day would come.  And I'm so excited to see where my journey leads me.  I'm starting a 90 day challenge with Body by VI.  It's sounds awesome and i'm completely excited to see where it leads me.  If you go here, you can see what it's all about.  It's a shake program that anyone can use.  If you are a body builder, need to loose weight, or want to just get healthy.  They are the best tasting shakes I've ever had and the recipes are endless!

I'm feeling better and better, but I really need to consistently exercise.  Which I'm not, FAIL! I'm only working out like 1 day a week at the moment.  But it's better than nothing.  Thanks for the encouragement and routing me on! It's really helped and encouraged me over the last couple months!  

Long time, no talkie!

Hey Guys!

Sorry for being MIA....Alot has happened over the last little while...

Let's see here's the list....may not be in order, but I will def try to keep it in order!

• Loosing 16 pounds! 
• Mom going through a series of trials through her Gastric Bypass surgery. 
• We headed up to Sacramento to help Justin's brother, Will move.  
• Growing my relationship with my hubs! 
• Just feeling strong and coming to terms with my life.  

Let me just focus on one at a time.   Since I joined Jenny Craig a few months back, I have come to learn a lot!      Back in May or June, we really weren't able to afford it any longer, so I made the choice to really try it on my own.  I lost the first 10 with jenny, and now I've done 6 on my own! I couldn't be happier.  I have learned how to eat healthy and smart when I can't eat so healthy.  I've really come to terms with exercise.  I actually love it. Overall, I feel really good.  Justin has been a huge support for me.  As well as my mom and dad and my best  friend Kathy.  Everyone is really encouraging, and I know I can actually do it.  I think my problem all these years has been instant gratification and over thinking everything.  I made it to be something that was so intangible, that I just didn't care to do it.  Now I know what it takes, and it's so EASY! 

My mom made the decision to do gastric bypass a while ago.  She did the research, talk to people who had it done, prayer tons about what God wanted for her life, and had an overall peace about her decision.  I couldn't have been more happy! She originally went in a month ago for the surgery.  We were all waiting in the waiting room when the Dr. comes out after an hour and tells us that they can't do the surgery.  WHAT! my heart sinks! Apparently the anesthesiology made an error that really could have really hurt my mom if not killed her. He basically put a huge hematoma on my moms stomach right where they had to do the surgery.  Needless to say she was not a happy camper, but she made it through just fine and recovered well! A week later we were back.  Since I was the one staying with her over night and all that, I was mentally prepared, but exhausted.  I can't really recall where I was or what happened for the 2nd try.  But once again it failed, she was throwing PVC's which is basically her heart skipping all over the place.  Her heart rate dropped during the beginning.  She would eventually be put up in a room and we would try the surgery again for the 3rd time the next day.  Everyone came....we got calls from the nurse twice while she was in surgery, she did beautifully! 

She is now 3 weeks out from her surgery, but on Sunday she was having some really really bad pain in her stomach.....She called that night to the Dr.  and he told her if it persists to come in and he would meet her at the hospital.  Monday morning came and she was going into the hospital!   holy cow! I was really freaked out! She had a CT scan and everything came out great.  She just had gastritis.  She did have to stay in the hospital over night....I was once again, her sleeping buddy.   Over all she is doing awesome and she is down 26 lbs! I'm so proud of her and excited that she will be getting her health back! 

On the 4th of July  we headed up to Sac to help Will and Sam move! They were moving just a half an hour south, but we had to move them from two different places: storage unit and her parents house.  We got it all done so quickly and their new house is absolutely adorable! Everything came together so nicely and it was so great to be able to hang out with them for 5 days! 

I'm finally feeling like i'm in a really great place and knowing I am the one who is loosing the weight on my own.....its a freeing feeling! I know i am a lot stronger than I give myself credit for.  I have always never taken responsibility for myself....(that's a whole different topic that probably would involve a therapist, so we won't go there) but I am actually feeling like I have so much control! And I like it! lol.  Life is good, God is great, and friends are amazing.  I'm so thankful for having such a full life.  It feels beautiful! 

That's it for now, and I'll definitely be keeping up more..  

loves, for now

Memorial Day Weekend!

I will say this about my weight loss so far... The last 2 to 3 weeks have been crazy, hectic, and not so great scale wise.  I'm going back and forth within my 10 lbs.  I'm finding myself at a low, after an incredible weekend of friends, laughter, games, hiking and everything wonderful.  I'm still sticking to my guide lines as best as I possibly can.  I just need to refocus and get back on the band wagon.  I know my mom is helping us with it, but right now we can't afford Jenny Craig.  We have so much stuff coming up, we literally cannot afford to pay half of the food.  I'm starting to get a little overwhelmed because of the fact that we can't afford the food anymore.  I know I can make healthy choices and do great things for my body outside of Jenny.  I just have to be diligent to do so.  Prayers are definitely needed in that area.  Prayer for direction and discernment on what's good for my body.

 

This past Memorial Day Weekend, Justin and I set out on Adventure! We went camping.  Well kinda.  We only lasted 1 night of camping due to pretty bad wind, rain, and ice conditions on the mountain we were staying.  Along with our dear friends, Kathy, Andrew, Sophie, and Ryan, we all braved one night of terrible conditions and no sleep.  The next day we headed into Julian and enjoyed the quaint little town.  It was a lot of fun! Since we are terrible at taking pictures..I shall take some from our friends FB and post them!  The one above is from a 6 mile intense hike at Black Mountain.  It was really hard.  It was WELL worth it! It was such a gorgeous view at the top! I felt very accomplished.  It was amazing!

What were your highlights this past week?  Hope you guys have a great weekend! Do something good for yourself!

Update!

Hey Guys!

I know it's been a while since I have updated, so here goes!

I weighed in this last Thursday.  Ugh. It had only been 5 days since my last weigh in and I had to weigh in at 5:30 in the evening, again.  So of course their scale claimed I had gained 2 pounds.  Which is false, because I weighted myself at home that morning, and it said I hadn't lost anything. That I was still at my 10 lb weight loss. So I am going with a truer weight from the morning.

So Last week, I wasn't able to exercise at all due to headaches/migraines.  It was awful.  I was in a lot of pain and I even had to stay home from work Wed. because of it.  This week is a new week though! This past Sat and Sun were full of celebrating my birthday! I literally had a week long celebration! It was  nice! This weekend I did not eat well, at all.  We had PF Changs and POP.  

I won't weigh in again until next Tuesday.  Which in all honesty, I'm not that worried about it.  I have a ton of exercise coming my way this weekend.  Along with some healthy eating! This week though before the weekend I would really like to get in the work, but I have so much going on and prepping for the camping trip, that I'm going a little nuts.  It shall be good.  I think I need to sit and have a pep talk with myself about what I really want and what my goals are every 10 lbs.

I am feeling good, but feeling tired.  The headaches are really getting to me.  The migraines.  Oh the migraines. I can't handle them.  Just trying to stay positive.  I'm drinking water like a fish and I know that I am trying my best.  despite what the scale says, I know I'm bettering myself.  And that my friends, is the entire point of this!


Stay motivated my friends!


Until next time......

feeling good!

Hey Guys!

So I just wanted to give you all an update!

I had to switch my weigh in days from Tuesdays at 5:30 to Sat at 8am.   I did this for a couple reasons.  One...You flat out weigh more in the evening than in the morning first thing.  It was literally adding 2 lbs to my weight.  Secondly....it's been tough going to J.C getting all my food and getting home, eating and then making it to Bible Study by 7p.m.   So needless to say this past week with weighing in i had only 3 days in between.   but!   according to their scale, I lost 2.8 lbs! So according to their records I have lost 8 lbs.  As of this morning on my scale, I have lost a total of 10 lbs.  I'm excited to see what their scale tells me.

Yesterday I went to the gym for the first time in who knows how long.  I did a total of 45 minutes doing cardio.  And honestly....it was NOT BAD! I did 25 minutes on the elliptical, 15 min on the bike and 5 min on the stair stepper.  I actually felt great being there and it made me feel good for doing something for myself.  I can't wait to shed these lbs and feel like myself again.

Needless to say, baby making has been put on hold for now.  We both feel it's really important for me to shed pounds and get healthy.  So that is what we are focusing on now.  I feel the longing and need to feel good again.  I feel like it will set me back by getting pregnant right now.   We want to.......trust me, we just have to do what is good for our family.

SHOUT OUT! I'm super proud of my best friend Kathy, for kicking butt and taking names! She is getting married at the end of December, and she is rocking it! Keep up the awesome work darling! We deserve this!


I am for the first time in a long time, excited about my future!

Week 2 weigh in.....

So last night I went and did my official Jenny Craig weigh in.  I lost another 2.6 lbs.   She also told me she is worried that I'm loosing weight to fast.  I'm thinking....NO! We shall see what this week brings.  I have consistently lost 9 lbs for the last 3 days.  So i'm sticking with that number.

I am switching my weigh in day to Saturdays, so it will be a  short week of weighing in.  I'm feeling really good and know I can get a grip on my shakes and my feeling hungry.  It will be a great week!

End of week 2

Well it's the end of week 2 for me on Jenny Craig, and I weigh in tonight.  Let me give you so updates before we get to some of the good stuff!

Last week when I met with my consultant, she switched me down to 1500 cal per day.  I was previously on 1700.  I have been feeling very hungry ( but I haven't caved in, to bad. A small bowl of cereal here or there under 120 calories.) I have also been having headaches EVERYDAY!   Is this supposed to happen?  Where I feel hungry and experience pain because of this?  Well i'm cool with feeling hungry and all, that I can deal with.  After all I have go give something up in order for this process to work! But these headaches are almost as bad as migraines.  Advil will NOT take them away, so I have been having to take my Imitrex and last night I caved in to taking a Vicodin before bed so i could sleep. ( Since I had had the headache since 2 that afternoon.)

I feel comfortable with talking to my gal pal (that's what I call my support lady at J.C.) about these issues and trust she will have the answer.

As of today I have lost a total of 9 lbs! I'm so happy! That is according to my scale in the morning, and with no clothes on.  I actually weighed myself after I got dressed this morning and it said I only gained 1 pound.  We shall see.  I might have to buy a J.C. scale.  I will see how much they are.  I'm feeling a little discouraged already due to the fact that I weight in at 5:30 p.m. after a whole day of food filling my body and I may or may not have been able to get rid of any of it at that point.  I'm going to ask if I can change my day to Saturday mornings.


No matter what, I know how much weight I have lost and most importantly, How I FEEL! Which is great! I love not feeling bloated all the time and seeing my jeans fit looser.  I love that my ugly belly bulge is starting to deflate.  YAY for deflation!  I had in my head that loosing weight was impossible.  And I firmly believed it.  I knew other people can do it, but for some reason, I was not able to.  I know call me crazy.  It's so hard being over weight.  I'm just hoping I can help motivate others to get on the bandwagon.  No not everyone can do Jenny Craig, it is expensive.  But, If you can start eating more fruits and veggies that is the key! I firmly believe fiber is what helps.  


That's all for now, I will try and post what Jenny has for me as for as weight loss.

Thanks for the support all!


Loves